Yield

It's about time to confess. A couple of people came to me about my hostile personality recently, maybe not recently but all along. For those of you who do not know,

people wonder...
- why I don't say goodbye on phone,
- why I become rude at times,
- why my reply on MSN and SMSes are like that

and so on...

and YES! I am an impatient person, I talk fast and expect you to come straight to the point. I don't like it when you spend half an hour explaining to me about the same thing over and over again. I am feeling down especially when I am alone. I am pretty serious in the sense that I don't laugh easily at the jokes you find funny. And my reply on MSN and SMSes are short and not act cute. I prefer replying one word answer as I am lazy to type and prefer talking to typing. Therefore my answer may seem hostile but I am actually very happy and positive on the other side of the computer. In future, call me la, talking on phone prevents misunderstanding.

Imelda said something that I truly agree- Designers are weird and crazy in one way or another. How true is that? I think I am an abnormal person. Even I myself don't understand myself. I don't support hatred towards a person and I think we ought to accept one for who they are. Nobody can be the perfect someone.

But all right, I swear I shall change my hostile personality from today. But I won't go too far because it will end up becoming too fake. You on the other hand, make adjustments to that too.

To a certain extend, I am an attention seeker and I admit I blog to seek attention. The previous few post were rather emo and I shall not focus to much on emo topics already. There are many jovial things to share.

We went to my favourite NYDC for dinner and gossip talk after lesson on Tuesday. Actually the class has pretty strong sense of camaraderie apart from the CMYKs. Maybe you girls can join us more often next time, we will love that!

Let's see what else happened. Our infamous Sexy Butt! His bad habit of lazying around came back again right after school opens. But nevertheless, he still made it to my TOP 5 chart. How unfair is that huh?

However, we see a star in the making. Tune in to MTV to catch a glimpse of him today!

There was a gangster spotted in class this week.

This is the second clue. She has a blog. She blogs in class!

Yesterday went MOS with my classmates. Stefany was gorgeous! I enjoy clubbing very much because it is the fastest and best way for me to release my stress and pressure in recent years. I tell you I am feeling so much better now after yesterday. Maybe its the only way for me to release stress. Clubbing number ONE!

High class image aside, being a lunatic is what we should in club, dancing with all your hearts out! I really had great fun! I love drinking too! It just makes you HIGH HIGH HIGH! Everyone is crazy there, even the gorgeous Stefany. It is a good form of exercise- you just sweat and the more you move, the more weight you will lost. And my butt is firmer now. So glad Yuan and Guozheng came, you peeps should join us more often! Saw senior Wanru and sec school Hanna there as well. Nightlife, so happening! Woohoo, Andrea, let's plan the next session soon!

Before I go, I want to urge you to watch 稀游记 2 on Channel U! Belinda Lee is nevertheless one of the best host in MediaCorp. I always feel so heart warming throughout and after the show.

Mr Catastrophe

I realised I can never be a happy person.

It's not that I don't want to, it's just hard. It's not within my control. I didn't want to choose to be depressed. Imagine I am only schooling now... what will happen when I go army? It's so going to be unbearable.

- Who on earth don't wish he or she is happy?
Happiness is everything in life.
- Are the people around you acquaintance or soulmates?
Soulmates? I think otherwise.
- Is there anyone you are completely 100% comfortable with?
Trust me, nobody is perfect.
- Do you see the future in you all?
Don't be so sure, people are unpredictable.

I am in a state of not knowing what I am talking these days! Ignore me if you want. I need some time to adjust to "back to school" mood though.

I went to Cold Storage yesterday. Everything goes up! Hard Butter, used to be $1 to $2, now goes up to $4- mind you made in Malaysia. The instant noodles went up, cooking oil went up, rice too and many other dairy products all went up. In the news the Thai Rice went up to the highest ever... why is cost of living so high now?

In the past, your aunty bought her HDB flat costing less than 50K, as low as 10K to 20K. And now, your cousin, who just got married bought their new flat at 250K. It's a difference of 10 times!!! And mind you it's only a difference of one generation. Imagine... what will happen when you finally get married and want to buy a flat? You will live your life earning money to pay for your housing loans and installments.

This is CRAZY...

Für Elise

We all come together for Elise today. The name Elise is only one week old, reason is because we (actually me) came out with the name for WANG only last week, heehee! And as for "Fur Elise", it's actually my favourite piece from Beethoven.

Had fun at Mind's Cafe the whole afternoon. And while on the way to the cafe, I saw this Babe right outside the office of UOB building. She was with a big big birthday cake. We continued walking towards Boat Quay when a few school games stopped us for donations. We made some noise and got the Babe's attention. Suddenly the Babe called out my name. Guess what!

It's actually Stefany- our one and only beloved Chairman of our Grad Show in 2009! It never crossed my mind that the Babe I saw was someone I know. What a small world, she was there to celebrated her cousin birthday, and at Mind's Cafe too!

Dinner at Waraku.

Wait a minute, I mentioned that I have been going to Ajiteh previously. Actually I have been going to Waraku too. Maybe another Member's Privilege Card for me?

We never leave unless we take a beautiful group photo, and until I drink my Japanese Tea until I am superbly shiok!

I hear people talking about how much they missed their ITP company and how well their boss treated them. For me, I like the fact that we earn money and when we do that, we get to have the spending power and buy our favourite things.

This picture was taken a month ago when the two dudes came over to my place. Apparently I was wearing this brand new TOMMY watch of Marvin. I love the watch as much as he does, but however this watch don't suit me at all.

After figuring out that expensive watches don't suit me, I headed for my favourite HUGO scent and a PORTER bag. Wee! I'm sorry you can't see the bag clearly because it ain't in contrast with my shirt. Hahaha!

School is starting tomorrow. I am feeling both fear and excited. To everyone, my happiness lies in your hands!

Internship

Everybody, give an applause for yourself. For the past 9 weeks, we have been working under our attached company and finally, its all over now. The courage, the pain, the hardship and the life-time experience that we had been through will stay with us for the rest of our lives.

You either feel happy and sad or sad and happy, it's mixed feelings. For such an emotional and sentimental person like me, I definitely feel sad in one way or another but there's an exception- maybe not this time.

I was attached to this small design house with brother cum slacker Cris. Through the 9 weeks, I get to experience working life and realized that such companies ain't my cup of tea. I will be better off working with a bigger and more professional company or rather international companies/MNCs. Sitting in front of the computer the whole day is just not what I enjoy doing, sorry about that- I love working with fun people.

That day, for those of you close friends who know which day I was talking about, I chose to remain silent. It is rare for me to do so because I will always rebuke on what I think is right and of justice. Remaining silent is hard and wrong, we should always stand up for our rights and not get ACCUSED and given a death sentence instantly.

For one thing, I will never do things that is against integrity, and those that will harm people.

Goodbye Amelia aka Joanna and Christopher, our beloved colleagues. And to Cris, thanks and thanks for everything that has happened during this 9 weeks. We are fated to be in this together. It's a total relieved to have you with me, especially when I am not so independent. I will never forget the times we have, whether it is sour sweet bitter or spicy, we've been through them all, through thin and thick.

And frankly speaking, Ajiteh sushi should issue me a privilege diner's card. Because ever since I started working, I've been going there almost every week. You see the proof-

On Tuesday with sexy butt Marvin.

And on Friday with Cris and Amelia. Apparently everyone else had gone to high-class places to celebrate and farewell with their colleagues. Because there's ain't any for us that day, we went to celebrate ourselves.

And then on Saturday, Fourest Films casts and crews were playing mahjong together. I guess if I continue to play mahjong every week, I will get sick of it real soon. Blame it on my 三分钟热度 pattern.

Whenever I am sad, I will seek SOS from retail therapy or my idol. I was watching her Mr Bill Music Video, it was very impressive and very interesting. Sun had to act in it and I think she did a great job.

Here's some of the screen shot from the music video. Personally I love the wushu thingie the most. Most Asians who landed on Hollywood must know wushu or be in movies with wushu elements in it. Take a look around you- Michelle Yeoh, Shu Qi, Lucy Liu and even our very own Fann Wong.



I saw this video (above) two weeks ago and I thought it was kinda hilarious. And well.... Sun definitely put in lotsa effort in her acting! Watch out for her heels, its damm high!




And ladies and gentlemen, here is the full music video of FAST CAR by Wyclef Jean, where Sun made special guest appearance in. She is the baddie.

It seems "HAPPY"

I'm so relieved my holiday trip has finally been confirmed. I can't wait to getaway. I just want to leave, want to have a break, a break from here. I am so so so tired, I have no more endurance. I don't want to think so much any more, I don't want to bring any matters with me for the trip, I want to put everything here and escape with freedom, escape to a place to enjoy, nothing but enjoy! Sounds like haven to me now!

I love and appreciate these little little dinners I had with my friends after work each time. Stefany is nothing but hungry while Lester is nothing but tired.

Marvin is sexy butt, and he has a big big tummy. Vincent only love is Polo Tees and nothing else. Zhao is moving to Boon Lay (where Sophia is staying now) in a few years time.

When I came back from the SD camp on Saturday morning, I headed for my bed and slept till 5pm. When I woke up I felt really upsad because half of my weekend is gone already.

I told myself this is not going to be the way. Thus I was out the whole day on Sunday. I found myself wondering around at one part, then I was with Elise in Orchard, but at night I really had a good chat in the Eastern part of Singapore. After the restaurants closed, we went to the playground and chat till 2am! Its been a hundred years since I last sat on the swing, but it just make me sick, like vomiting. I'm old already!

I was telling my classmate about my current emotional status this afternoon. I feel terrible, I see water in my eyes. Many things are just not going smoothly for me these days. Work, friends and family you name it. I think it's a bit thick skin of me to admit, to admit that I think I am a very nice person, or at least I tried so hard to be one. I am, I really tried very hard! And for an attention seeker like me, I am lying if I tell you I didn't expect anything in return- I am always anticipating them.

For now, I don't see what's coming ahead of me, because I choose not to. I am guilty of having that FEAR in me. Yea, FEAR! I am weak.

Your TV show is more important... fine then!

I Love Weekends!

Ever since I started working, I have been looking forward to weekends very very much. Weekends is like never before already, because I get to see all the beloved people in my life. So far, I have been enjoying my weekends and I hope you guys too!

KTV-ed with our seniors on Saturday. ZJ is the most 大牌 singer, she was most late, but because she is ZJ so nvm, haha! Anyway I was almost floating into Kenji's songs each time he sings. He's brilliant, I have seen so many people who can sing well, but on top of that, Kenji sings with emotions! The emotion segment is handled so well that some of you girls might tear at that moment. *Applause please*

Foxy forever so handsome, dye hair somemore you know (minus off that tummy)! Everyone *drool* please! Lester on the other hand, sit also cannot sit properly. Minus marks!

Girls in white are angels! The oldies duet songs that I know how to sing Valentia don't know how to sing, then those newbie duet songs she knows how to sing I don't know how to sing. Aiyo! After KTV, we headed to MINDS CAFE. Wow! Playing games can give me heart attack man. Next time, 995 please be on stand by.

Yogi Bear and Dino at APB's. They came over with Teh Terik Ice Cream from Island Creamery (Andrea worked there for one day before). Bravo choice of flavour, for a tea and coffee person like me, it's one flavour I would like. Aw, touched!

If Marvin is sexy butt, then sexy legs is none other than Dino! Had my weekly gym routine with Yogi Bear and GZ. I really put a lot of hard work in it and I swear I see results now, yes I do! Oh my god, I can be a HUNK soon!

Giving swimming lesson to our dear friend. He passed stage 1. Well done on the courage! Going to proceed to stage 2 the next time we see him.

Hilarious group shot! Next time more people should join us, instead of just lazying at home during the weekend! How about coming over to my house this weekend? Hmmmm, I'll give you free massage (with/without extra service) and tonnes of coffee and tea!

We were all cooked in the sauna. Guess whose muscular bod is this?

I am already looking forward to next week lo. Wonder what's in stall for me? Hair cut appointment and OH! Design school camp! Gonna meet so many wonderful faces soon... Yuani, Sophia, Audrey and the new juniors! Wow to the new weekend, I am coming lo!

Off to play viwawa now, tata~

This is CRAZY

CRAZY!
CRAZY!
CRAZY!

I am going crazy!

Crazy!

Crazy!

Crazy!

I don't know how and what to say already. So I just want to tell you people to appreciate the people around you and not have hatred. Remember, world peace! Be fair be square, biasness ain't good. Don't be mean and try to get what you want without concerning the feelings of other people. Live life with love. Live life with integrity!

大家要做个好人，这世界还会变得跟美好！

I guess I am going crazy. The fact is I gained some and I loss some. I don't know whether I want to forget things like the past, having the risk that history will repeat itself again. Perhaps this is life.

I admit of being an attention seeker all this while. My blog is one way which I get attention. I see good people around me. To these good people, 阿乐弟会是勇敢的。

To end off, I like to wear other people's clothes, or clothes that other people bought for me. I like! I like! I like!

Tsk Tsk

Yesterday afternoon, I suddenly have the thought of pausing the time machine. I found happiness. How I wish everything could remain at that moment. My friends, my family and me. If I press play or even fast forward, I'm back to that fellow, that fellow who hates Monday and have to drag himself out of bed to go work everyday. If I could, I would have rewind and press play over and over again, how cool isn't it?

I know it's a childish thinking! But to think of that, everything is in my memory bank now. Good good memories that is going to stay with me as long as I can remember them.

We were with the gal clique from 01 on Good Friday. So enthusiastic, I like! Where a heck is the CMYK? They came out not for me, but to attend Dino's music concert at the Victoria Theatre.

Cam-whores! Marvin wants to be a model and takes model-ly pictures nowadays. Win liao lor.

Here's another one. But the bad news for him is he gained weight! Hahahahahahahaha, the amount of fats around his tummy and tights, hahahahahahahaha!

Our beloved star of the night! Kudos to people like Dino who can do music. I suck at that. My sense of rhythm can be a nightmare. After the concert, we had supper at Hooters before we spring towards the mrt station to catch the last train home.

Had Dim Sum at Geylang today morning with my relatives. Marco was there! Each time I see him, he is bigger by a little.

And this is Ivan! Our favourite action is hug hug. I love having meal like that with family and friends. It's one of the most enjoyable thing to do and I am very contented. Woah! What a sentimental new age guy I am!

GZ came over for gym and swimming at my place. It's great to see him getting fitter and fitter each time. But he needs to work harder on his tummy and hips more. I love to do exercise now because it burn off my fats and make me more hunkier.

Tomorrow is Monday Blues day! Hope it will pass by quickly and I anticipate towards Wednesday, where I am going to get myself something. Wednesday faster come!



Meanwhile, you must look at this. This song has been running round and round my head for the past few weeks. Zoe Tay astonishing white dress drools my heart away. She is very photogenic, in fact I feel that she is the most photogenic MediaCorp artiste in my chart. But she can't sing. And I feel that she ain't really as lucky as her fellow colleagues around that era. Fann Wong I am talking about, if you know what I mean. Did the then TCS actually have plans in making her big regionally. Just for your information, they successfully made Fann and even Phyllis Quek. Last I heard there are plans for Qi Yiwu and Joanne Peh. Can they make it big? We shall see.

Anguished

Dear readers, have you ever feel uncool about yourself? Being yourself? Do you think that your actions are childish and unbearable? Or have you wondered why can't you have a little of what others have?

I don't know why but I get irritated with myself quite often recently. I am unhappy with myself...

for being so old and haggard before/during/after work,
for getting jealous easily,
for being greedy and selfish,
for having such childish mindset
for having this big tummy,
for my poor communication skill with others,
for expressing what I want to express,
for being so rude to my parents,
for thinking too much,

YES thinking too much, a.k.a TTM is the real "IN" thing nowadays. "EMO" is no longer popular like what it used to be. Am I trying too hard to be a perfectionist? Or am I too sensitive? But maybe I am right, I am really irritating and awful.

I no longer think going to work is a little fun. And I don't like to hear friends talk about work. Zhao made a good point, we came out together to enjoy and have a break from work, not to get ourselves more engrossed into it. I mean that's me, where is the life everyone?

I took a break from work today, to see a chinese physician regarding my knee (I hurt it while ice-skating weeks ago). I always sprained my ankle and stuff but never dare to step into the physician, but as time goes by, I heard stories about the after effects of it and got scare. I don't want to have problems with my legs when I am old my dear. I overcomed my courage, although it's painful and I was sweating like a pig, I know it's good for me.

Then at night I went to see a doctor regarding my cough. For your information, it's been ongoing for about three weeks now and I haven't recover. It was an normal clinic at AMK neighbourhood and it cost me a freaking S$40!!! Man I am just having cough, not going for body check-u or have chicken pox and I have to pay S$40!

Adding on to S$30 for the chinese physician earlier, I spent a total of S$70 today just on minor sickness. S$70 is my 3 and a half day of pay at work, more than half of a week's pay that is! Where is my dream of buying a watch and perfume after I get my pay end of this month???

Random pictures taken this week-

Went to MOVIDA earlier this week to catch a gig by Colbie Caillat who was in town to promote her first album, COCO. I am impressed by her vocal and I feel that her style and voice have some resemblance of our local Tanya Chua.

Marvin Sexy Butt is very good at sweet talking and I am always a victim of falling into his trap. In a midst of anger, I ended up treating him and Zhao dinner at a posh restaurant that day! He always bully Dino during work, bad boy indeed! 但男人不坏，女人不爱.

Look at him, I am of 50% shareholder of him.

My Kor Kor so old yet so young!